In high school, grades were everything to me. If I was getting anything below a high A, my life was not right, and all of my energy went towards fixing it. I know that a lot of people here were in the same boat, and that's what got us here in the first place. It's not easy to change an entire mindset, especially when it's one that has benefitted us in the past.
A few days ago, I had a real analysis midterm.
Objectively, that’s not too bad of a statement. Midterms happen, and the point of the class is to prepare you for the test. The problem was that I hadn’t really been going to class for the last few weeks, because I literally couldn’t keep my eyes open in that class without opening my laptop. I figured it was pretty rude to the professor to sleep in his class or to work on other things, so I decided to use the hour and a half to teach myself the sections we were covering from the book.